It’s exaggerated, I know.
I may not be Atlas but this afternoon, I felt the big weight of pressure on my shoulder. It was as if a a planet is given for me to look after. I can’t help but think about what am I gonna do next.
This afternoon, we had our first meeting with our photojournalism professor. It’s my first time to encounter this man but I already heard some things about him and to tell you the truth, he seemed nice.
We are 48 students in class. Our room is not enough for 48 students so he asked the president to go to the Dean’s Office to ask for a relocation of our class. Everytime the door opens, the number of persons standing in the door has nothing to seat at all. No space, no chairs-nothing. But, since we need to have some patience for our first day because relocation is not an easy thing, he started discussing about photojourn.
And suddenly, he asked about lomography.
PROF: Who does lomography here? raise your hand.
STUDENTS: (some looks at each other, and some of my close friends looked at me)
PROF: Go ahead, don’t be shy. I won’t do anything with you. I just want to know.
STUDENT: Sir, si S*****, si S*****!!! (my classmate said, making the whole class turn to me)
By my classmate’s blessing, my secret is now revealed. So, by a forced confession, I raised my hand. I am now a lomogirl to my classmates eyes which I don’t want to spill at first. Why? Because I am a low profile person and I don’t want my classmates to think that I am emphasizing my little knowledge about photography or should I say lomography (since the two are not one and the same –according to my professor).
Furthermore in the discussion, the professor (knowing that I do lomography) gave me a 120 Black & White (B&W) film and asked me to present my shots before the class on Monday. I just smiled since my classmates went “YIHEEEE” and since I am a student and he is a professor, then I have to follow his order / assignment.
The film is an expired Kodak TCN 400. It’s my first time to use a B&W so wish me luck. I hope that my Diana+ would like her new companion. And, I just hope to produce SUBSTANCIAL PHOTOS since he mentioned earlier in the class that lomo is just about the FORM without the SUBSTANCE.
I wish to make the substance and form appear on my photos. I wish. I wish.
Eventhough there is so much pressure on my side, I would still consider it as challenge to face so at the end of the day, I can say that I did my best on that challenge and there’s nothing to loose if I gave my all.
*positive thoughts keep on coming!* S.