For the past 24 hours, I already received three job related offers. One from a broadcasting company, one from a broadsheet supplement and the another from a test preparation agency. All of which I applied as a writer. But with the blessings coming like these, I’m half happy and half confused about myself. I’m happy because my resume is getting noticed now and I’m confused because I don’t know if I will ever get to meet the company’s expectation.
In my four years of mastering the craft of journalism, I still haven’t find the guts to sell my craft to the real world. I don’t know if I can really make a living out of my writing because I’ve been really meaning to earn so that I could help Lola in paying the bills. I can write, i know I can but will the employers see that potential in me? Will they accept me as I am and not dictate me against things that contradict my values?
I’m currently having one of the worst crisis of my life. Self doubt at it’s finest, which is a bad thing. But like they say, the best thing that a writer can do for himself/ herself is to trust her craft so, in God’s grace and wisdom, I will just trust myself, work harder to achieve better results by reading and writing more and put everything to His hands.
Because this self doubt, too, shall pass.