self doubt

For the past 24 hours, I already received three job related offers. One from a broadcasting company, one from a broadsheet supplement and the another from a test preparation agency. All of which I applied as a writer. But with the blessings coming like these, I’m half happy and half confused about myself. I’m happy because my resume is getting noticed now and I’m confused because I don’t know if I will ever get to meet the company’s expectation. 

In my four years of mastering the craft of journalism, I still haven’t find the guts to sell my craft to the real world. I don’t know if I can really make a living out of my writing because I’ve been really meaning to earn so that I could help Lola in paying the bills. I can write, i know I can but will the employers see that potential in me? Will they accept me as I am and not dictate me against things that contradict my values?

I’m currently having one of the worst crisis of my life. Self doubt at it’s finest, which is a bad thing. But like they say, the best thing that a writer can do for himself/ herself is to trust her craft so, in God’s grace and wisdom, I will just trust myself, work harder to achieve better results by reading and writing more and put everything to His hands.

Because this self doubt, too, shall pass. 

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About Shayne Zalameda

Shayne Zalameda is Misstache. She adores eating, traveling, attending events, and watching films. She likes to omit adjectives and is fascinated with ironies. As much as possible, she tries to avoid the word "very". Sometimes she easily forget things. More on http://LeMisstache.com
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