Last night, my friend and I played a vision game. One will cover his eyes and the other will lead the way. I went first in leading the way, and being the naughty me, I was very tempted to lead my friend to the orange cones in the road, so it would look funny, but eventually, since I don’t want him to lose his trust on me (but more importantly, I don’t want him to get hurt), I didn’t do it. I’m just laughing with the idea the whole time.
And when it’s my turn to be the blind one, my friend led me to a pile of mini dividers and let go of me so I walked continuously and barged into the divider. I did not get hurt but something hit me, and it’s not emotions of feeling hurt or whatsoever, it was realization that hit me.
“I already let go of you so you should have opened your eyes immediately,” my friend said.
Maybe it’s just me giving so much meaning to things but on a deeper note, that message from my friend could be interpreted in many ways. And this is the way I see it: you can trust someone but don’t forget that you also need to trust yourself, more than anything.
Later on, my friend told me that while I was leading his way, his eyes were actually open the whole time so he knows what I’m doing. Everything. Seems like he doesn’t trust me that much. Or he just trusts himself too much.
It was a simple game but it left a big mark on me. I guess that’s just how it is…
Trust is hard.
Trust is frail.
Trust is everything.
Trustful to everyone but not so much to herself