They say that comedians are the saddest people on Earth. It’s one of life’s biggest paradox; kind of hard to digest but so damn easy to visualize.
Mental illness is an issue too easy to disregard. Most times people around us will even contribute to the void we feel inside, saying we’re not meant to feel this or that. But that’s not how it should be. We are humans and we feel things, sometimes things that are even beyond our understanding. No one may understand you, no one will, and no one can because depression is yours and yours alone.
My point is: it’s okay not to feel okay.
Maybe it’s hard to see ourselves the way other people see us.
Isn’t it ironic for a person who caused so many smiles to have enough reason to take his own life?
Oftentimes suicide will come as a shock, hinting at nothing that will possibly lead to the act. That’s the most scary thing, isn’t it? The unknown, the unexpected, the sudden.
Imagine how much laughters this person have caused. It’s like digging a pit of happiness causing everyone to drown and forget their in the meantime sorrows. In the process of making everybody happy, they become consumed with their own inner devils that they just drown. Alone.
So I wonder why the funniest are often times the saddest.
They share their all without expecting anything in return aside from your smile. They have contributed so many sunshines despite having occasional rain pours in their life. Remember how Charlie Chaplin once said that he loves the rain because in it is where he can hide his tears? That’s one truly sad quote from a man with a big heart.
Maybe there is a reason for everything. Probably there’s an explanation on why lightness seeps in on every crack. Or maybe we can never really know.
So to that one hero who made us all laugh, I will forever remember you as my captain, my peter pan, my doctor, my nanny, my psychologist, and most of all my teacher. It’s just sad, I’m really sad for your sudden death. You were a big part of my childhood. My heart goes to your loved ones. May you rest in peace, Robin Williams. I wish there’s laughter there in heaven.
To anyone needing a friend, whether in real life or online, please know that I’m here and remember that life will get better. Always know that someone, somewhere LOVES and CARES for you. Don’t take your life.
Sending love and hugs your way!